In the Silence: Accessing the Inner Guru – #WATWB

The last blog, Finding my Way Inside and Out, tells of the recent struggles that led me to the following endeavors – and ultimately, paved the way for today’s good news. Check it out!

In hopes of increasing my focus, I’ve started practicing meditation again. Most of the time, though, when I sit down, close my eyes, and deliberately try to access my ‘wisdom’—that part of me that knows everything—all I hear for the first few minutes are thoughts. My jagged thoughts hop around like a Mexican jumping bean, my shoulders feel tight and my breathing is shallow. My head fills up with everything I should do today. But after a few minutes of deep breathing and letting myself settle, I quiet down, bring my focus to a mantra—usually my TM mantra but sometimes a nourishing affirmation such as “I am at peace” or “In the silence, I feel God’s love.” I pay attention to a quieter space inside me. Even if I don’t connect to a sense of higher consciousness, I feel calmer by the time I open my eyes.

Wondering if there were other ways that worked better for me to access my inner guru, I explored train-of-thought writing in a journal again. Decades ago, I used to fill three lined sheets of paper first thing in the morning without stopping to edit, ala writer Julia Cameron in her book The Artist’s Way. Morning Pages, or MPs as I call them, are about anything and everything that crosses your mind. Writing nonstop like this as soon as I awake tends to comfort me, help me see more clearly, and prioritize the day at hand. 

I started doing train-of-thought writing with a pen and paper because I could do it in bed, or with a keyboard and word processing program on my PC when I got up. Recently, I purchased a Freewrite Typewriter that forces me to write without editing. It’s perfect for accomplishing MPs! Through writing, I engage a deeper part of myself that can help me face and deal with my fears rather than run and hide from them like before. 

After I notate the current date and time, I scribble whatever is on my mind for at least 15 minutes. It might end up being three pages of random thoughts and chores awaiting me, or a paragraph exploring an idea that came to me as I awoke. I try to sweep all that stuff rattling around inside my head onto the page. I don’t journal every day but I’m making it my practice to check in with myself in my journal at least three times a week.

After I finish clearing out my thoughts, I keep writing. Once I’ve released the debris cluttering my brain, I automatically start looking at things from a different point of view. What started as dropping chaotic debris onto the barren earth in the morning, by evening sometimes feels like I’m tilling the soil, watching for new seeds to sprout. I’m grateful to be able to share my journey with you. I think I’ll pick up my journal and start writing … and see where it takes me.

The good news this month: it’s never too late to add new tools to your toolbox – or remember to use those that have helped in times past.

On that note, I’m including links to a couple of articles below for you that expound on the benefits of journaling and self reflection. Enjoy, friends.

Pandemic diaries: Why journaling now is the best time to start or restart

Another reason to be thankful? It’s good for you

At the end of each month, we bloggers are given an opportunity to post good news, offering an antidote to bad news in our feeds. For every dark, negative story out there, there is a positive, heartwarming story that will add some light and lift the human spirit. #WATWB was started in March 2017; we’ve been sharing positive, uplifting stories to inspire, give hope and motivate others for many years now. This month’s co-hosts are Sylvia McGrath and Belinda Witzenhausen. Please check out their blogs and say hello.

Lizbeth Hartz is the author of the true crime, true love memoir Angel Hero, Murder in Hawaii, A True StoryGet it on Amazon or sign up to read the 1st chapter free.


  1. Mary J Giese on July 30, 2021 at 12:07 pm

    Lizbeth, thanks for sharing your good news and writing practice. I don’t write as you, but I do keep a daily gratitude journal (3 things I’m grateful for) with a couple of lines for spiritual thoughts or prayers. It helps with a positive inner peace to know there are so many good things in life to b thankful for.

    • Lizbeth Hartz on August 2, 2021 at 2:41 am

      Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts about my post, Mary, and for your own lovely post about honoring veterans. I think it’s lovely that you keep a journal for gratitude and spiritual thoughts–I’m trying to do the same on a consistent basis, but so far it’s easier to write nonstop first thing when I wake up, because otherwise waking consciousness intervenes and I forget the thoughts I wake up with. I think anything we do to remind ourselves of our connection to higher consciousness is so worthwhile.

  2. Belinda Witzenhausen on August 1, 2021 at 7:04 pm

    Great post Lizbeth! I developed health issues years ago and as a result had a great deal of anxiety. I found meditation and morning pages has definitely help me. I twist up my morning pages though, the third page is usually part gratitude journaling with a few affirmations tacked on the bottom. I do this then go into a yoga/meditation session. If I miss a day I really notice it. Thanks so much for sharing and for being a part of #WATWB! Wishing you a wonderful week!

  3. Lizbeth Hartz on August 2, 2021 at 3:15 am

    Thank you for reading and I’m delighted you liked the post. I like your expression, that you “twist up” your MPs, and also like your including gratitude journaling and a few affirmations–how interesting, for I recently started to do that, too, at the end, because otherwise I usually don’t do it separately, too many things I need to do capture me. How lovely that you go into a meditation/yoga session, too. I never fail to be uplifted or inspired by the postings I read from you and the others at WATWB. Thanks so much for cocreating WATWB and for your great posts!

  4. susan scott on August 3, 2021 at 11:48 am

    Thanks Lizbeth so much for sharing your story! I have spells when I don’t do my morning (also TM) meditation but recently (especially as all visitors have now left) have taken up the practice again. It grounds me and somehow my day just seems to go more smoothly. I keep a journal on my bedside table to record any dreams I may have, but also to note the events of the day and gratitudes. Right hand side of journal for dreams, left hand side for events of the day plus my gratitudes.I’ll definitely check put the links you provided thank you …

  5. Lizbeth Hartz on August 3, 2021 at 10:47 pm

    Hi Susan! You’ve got it together, are more focused than I, who try hard to do journaling and TM first thing but often get sidetracked. That’s neat that you write your dreams down, something I used to do more I found very helpful in going deeper. Thanks for giving me the idea to split it up, two journals, what a great idea and easier to find like entries. And thanks for writing, and reading my post 🙂